So , there's an insight in Transactional Analysis called a "Stamp".
In my efforts to improve things for my wife I have grown disheartened with online "advocacy" groups that substitute posting stuff on the web, for actually creating change in the real, hard world.
I have grown intolerant of the puffed up egos that work against real commitment.
With my back to the wall, I am raring to get my book published. I don't have any appetite to mess or be messed about.
But,it was unfair of me to burst in on Litopia ;I am so touched and moved by all the messages that I have been receiving, bearing such a large Stamp.
I have received so many supportive messages; however I have upset so many more. That I regret, very much..
So apologetic, bashful, blushing: am I ??
All I have done is state my truth - a valuable and brave truth as far as I am concerned; I stand by my experience and the tender insight that comes with "new eyes". There is always a critical choice to be made between game-playing and engagement ; all anyone can do is make their own mind up on that.
Apparently I am in a minority , my acquaintance with the Colony is not a shared one. As I said I am prepared to take responsibility for that; my involvement is no doubt clouded and I definitely should have given it more time.
Trouble is, the author part of me is far too wild, ferocious, raging, raving , unrestrained and truculent ; too busy clambering up moonbeams, to dicker with any connotation of balderdash, baloney and bananas.
My path is a windswept, desolate, undomesticated , berserk one. When the aberrant author is out; better get out of the way. Sailorsam, I think, is probably better off being left to drift alone on the high seas, with his love songs and dreams.